In the waiting

Posted by on Nov 23, 2018 in Life | 19 Comments
In the waiting

When to restart my blog?
Where to start? 

I’ve repeatedly asked those two questions and hundreds more over the last 11 months.

To say that 2018 was a tough year for the Conlees and our beloved Highpoint is quite an understatement. We have grieved and we have moved and we have grieved some more. I now write from Atlanta, GA… a place that’s 380 miles from our family and our hometown. I’ve always been committed to transparency and authenticity in both my physical life and my digital life, and I’ll certainly continue with that commitment as I resume blogging. But it seemed appropriate to simply lay our reputation at the foot of the cross and allow some of the pain to subside privately rather than risk releasing any words that could be misinterpreted or too raw with emotion.  

My blog certainly won’t center around the events of 2018, but to remain unchanged through such a fire would be unfortunate. “God never wastes a wound” is a statement I’ve heard countless times… and it’s true. As my husband and I were asked to leave Highpoint, my prayer has been that neither bitterness nor wounded-ness would set in, and that the enemy would have no further victories. Instead, I desire for something beautiful to eventually come from this season. 

If you’ve ever heard me reference my best friend, she’s a woman I came to respect and love as I observed her grieve the loss of her husband with a beautiful combination of honesty and faith. While my loss is not comparable to hers, it is still a season of tremendous loss and I desperately want to emulate her path as Chris, my children, and I trust our good Father to bring redemption and healing not only to us, but also to anyone who’s been impacted by the strategic arrows that penetrated our church body in 2018. 

Recently, Chris and I heard a message on waiting. (How appropriate?!) Waiting has become my middle name. I know I’m not the only person in a season of waiting. In some ways, all of us are waiting. I’d even go so far as to say that if you aren’t waiting on the Lord for something, that’s probably a red flag that you may not be depending upon Him as much as you should. 

Waiting is defined several ways in Scripture. At times, it’s defined as involving expectation. It’s getting God’s perspective and then waiting with anticipation. Interestingly, it can also mean “to give birth” or “to twirl in the dance.” Waiting on God is defined a lot of ways, but it’s never defined as inactivity. So today, I challenge you to ask God:

What am I specifically waiting on?

As He brings that to the forefront of your mind, ask Him an even more important question: 

What do you want me to do to align myself with Your perspective as I wait?

Waiting stinks. Believe me, I know. Yet we can redeem the dread of waiting if we’re willing to seek God’s face. And when we can’t even muster the energy to seek His face, we can just crawl up in His lap. He knows our longings. He knows the depth of the ache as we wait. But if we bring our ache to Him, it’s possible for that ache to be replaced with anticipation as we trust Him to glorify Himself in the answer.

PS… Need some encouragement? Check out the Bethel/Kristene DiMarco song, Take Courage. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve cried through this song these last few months, but I always walk away with hope. This is helping us get through our wait and I hope it will help you, too.

 

19 Comments

  1. Jacy
    November 26, 2018

    Beautiful words. Thank you for sharing. Love you!

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    • karinconlee
      November 26, 2018

      Love you, too!

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  2. Michelle Harris
    November 26, 2018

    Karin – I still think of you and your sweet family so very often and continue to lift y’all in prayer. I have family in the Atlanta area and will shoot you a text when I am heading that way. We’ll grab that coffee that we never got to have. Much love to you, Chris and the kids.

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    • karinconlee
      November 26, 2018

      Thank you! Grateful for the prayers. And absolutely… let us know when you head to Atlanta!

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  3. Sarah Vickers
    November 28, 2018

    Yes, God never wastes a wound. He will redeem everything that has happened in your lives. Your family is in my constant prayers.

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    • karinconlee
      November 28, 2018

      Amen! Grateful for you.

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  4. Jackie Cooper
    November 30, 2018

    I miss you all so much! The grace and peace of your presence if surely missed by me and many others. We love you and wish you and your family many blessings.❤

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    • karinconlee
      November 30, 2018

      It is so mutual, Jackie. Much love to you and your family!

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  5. Randy Odom
    December 3, 2018

    Karin we love and miss you and Chris God is faithful in these hard times. During our 14 year assignment through Kelandria’s illnesses, we have seen His heart and hand.provide for us. We are thankful for your prayers and we love you and we keep you in prayer
    “The LORD is good, A strength and stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows [He recognizes, cares for, and understands fully] those who take refuge and trust in Him.”
    ‭‭NAHUM‬ ‭1:7‬ ‭AMP‬‬

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    • karinconlee
      December 3, 2018

      Our love for the Odom family runs deep. Thank you for your reminder. We are in uncharted territories of truly trusting Him for our daily bread. Reminders of His faithfulness in others lives encourages our faith.

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  6. Cynthia Horton
    December 7, 2018

    I pray for for Conlee’s daily at the end of my Priority Time. I hope in this next part of your journey you find peace. Your comfort and guidance are missed. Thank you for always being there to hold my hand and pray with me through some tough times. I wish you and your beautiful family all the wondrous joy , and love.
    Xoxoxo
    Cynthia

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    • karinconlee
      December 7, 2018

      Much love to you, Cynthia. Thank you for your prayers. Truly appreciated.

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  7. Barbara liles
    December 9, 2018

    Love you Karin ????
    You are in my constant prayer
    Missing you and Chris so much ????
    You are loved

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    • karinconlee
      December 9, 2018

      Chris and I think of you daily… literally. We rotate our Priority Time in our chair you recovered. Such a sweet reminder of all those we love in Memphis. Praying consistently for peace for you and your entire family.

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  8. Ann Hobbs
    December 11, 2018

    Love and miss ya’ll terribly. We pray often for you and Chris. Know that you are both loved and missed. ((Hugs))????????????

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    • karinconlee
      December 11, 2018

      Thank you. Means the world.

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  9. Ali Hooper
    December 12, 2018

    Though we were only at Highpoint for 2 years with a Navy assignment in Mem- we think of you both daily as God’s message through your words and actions permeated and sparked our hearts and minds. We pray for the best and know you will encourage a whole new city in their walk with Jesus as you did for us. Just getting back to blogging helps me know that you continue to trust in the Lord’s plan and it is such a good reminder for our family, that is also in a different type of waiting. Much love. Ali

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    • karinconlee
      March 14, 2019

      Ali- praying for you and your family in your waiting. Thanks for your earlier reply on my blog. Grateful for you… and as a Navy brat myself, I am grateful to how your entire family is serving our country.

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  10. Kathy Boyd
    March 14, 2019

    Karin – we have never met but I was so saddened to watch events unfold for you all over the last year. I know some of the pain you have dealt with as my father was a pastor who went through a situation where he was asked to leave the church when I was 14 years old. It took time to process the hurt but God was so faithful to walk the path with us.

    I am currently in a season of waiting. My husband is a pastor and in July 2018 I was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. I was very involved with our church and though I physically can’t be involved like I was before, it is hard to feel sidelined, waiting to see what happens next. I am using this new season to pray for others and I will be praying for you and your family. God has a plan for good for you all!!

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