Trust-ish

So who knew that I would be sidelined by pneumonia at the beginning of this blog series on trust issues? Honestly, I have been having a pity party the last few days. I am the proactive doctor type. Less than 48 hours into feeling bad, I was at the minor medical getting swabbed for all the 2023 things – Covid, strep, flu. (I am around too many people not to be proactive.) I was negative on all fronts, but I think the LPN assumed I wanted to walk out with something. Three prescriptions later, I left. 

Like a good girl, I took the steroid pack and was on my way to feeling better until seven days later, in the middle of the night, when everything returned with a vengeance. The next day I visited my internal medicine doctor. (Yep, you should have one of these.) A quick chest x-ray surprised us both. 

How can I be that proactive and still end up with pneumonia? I try to eat healthily, work out, and get 7 hours of sleep, the whole nine yards. Doesn't God know I am trying? I told a member of our team that I was mad at my body. His reply, "Maybe your body is mad at you?" Uh. He had a point. 

His words resonated in my mind. How often are the "Why God?" questions misdirected? My minor inconvenience and slow down are what my body needs. Why would I let time to recover become a pity party? I could ask, "Why God?" Or I could be grateful that

I have someone to help me.

I have health care.

I have a doctor and was able to get in quickly.

We caught it early.

I have a team that is stepping in to carry the load so I can rest.

Sickness didn't keep me from Easter or seeing my kids.

It is easy to go down the slippery slope of negativity and take something into a trust category that doesn't even belong in that conversation. 

What about you?

Where are you asking a WHY question that really is just a part of life? I am not special. Tons of people get sick, and many have meaningful and long-term struggles and even heartbreaking losses. 

Where are you wasting energy on a pity party?

What are the positive things that you could focus on? 

So many times, there are 100 positives, and we focus on the two negatives. I am guilty as charged this past week. So may we lift our chins up and resurrect our attitudes to reflect the praise and thankfulness that sometimes gets accidentally crowded out.